Stupid, I know, but I was hoping that since his depression was the major cause of his illness, and now that they were getting his depression under control, well, I was hoping he would come home.  Instead I guess they cured him of his need for being with me.

We chatted on the computer last night and while he did state that he loved me he thought we weren't healthy for each other.  And while he hasn't done anything with anyone else, he has thought about it.  But, you know, other than that it would be great if I would let him could come visit.

So I spent the night crying.  Even woke up that way.  Am I crazy to think there is nothing but mixed messages there?  Or is he doing this  because he is too cowardly to complete what he has started with this separation?